Different Strokes

I really dont know how i feel right now.

Its like..God..I need some answers

I have a feeling that Everything will be better by next week.

Wouldnt that be just great?

But I am a Personality Reader

No I cant read minds. But i read body language, personality, and voice. Thats where any person reveals a majority of who or what they are.
And thats where I get a majority if my information about you

And I think ive been right; else we wouldnt be as close as we are.
And I wasnt lying
I care about you more than anyone
I'm protective of you

And i plan on spending a majority of my summer with you
I hope you feel the same

On a different note. How do the two fof you not see it. Goddam, especially after he put me through hell for my decisions. I wish you could guys. I really wish you could. Im not mad at the two of you. Im mad that you dont see whats happening, or where itll put you

Ive just been thinking alot

Im gettng a hell of alot better at rhyming and flow choice. I cant wait until I can record some more stuff.
I wish I could play acoustic =/
Its almost the end of the year

yay

Like Toy Soldiers

Thats kinda how im trying to be right now. I mean thats how i was raised: To show no pain whether it be physical or emotional. I had to be the strong one for everyone.
"Ive never dragged them in batttles that I cant handle
unless I absolutely had to, Im supposed to set an example
I need to be the leader, my crew looks for me to guide them
If some shit ever just pops off im supposed to be beside them"

Ive kinda fumbled on that for the past couple of months.
Its ok though. I fell off the horse and can get back on.

And I do care
we share a brain silly
you knew that I would read
thats partly why you wrote it
so dont pretend like you dont care
cuz you do
and you know that I do as well

I miss you.

On another note..Im glad another person and I are seeing eye to eye right now. We're on the same playing field as eachother in dealing with a certain guy
Whos been getting on my nerves lately

I may not graduate. :(
I know its no big deal..but it is to me

I'm trying my hardest but its never ever enough.
I guess thats why I have horribly low standards

I would love to move to Tisbury Lane.


dont lie.

You know it sounds like a nice place to live

Three Hours And Counting

so I was listening to "Lean On Me" and ive deemed it as one of the best songs in the world.

Im actually listening to it right now:)



Phillips Feel Good Playlist for tonight:

-Lean On Me-Bill Withers

-Three Oh Nine-Hit The Light

-Changes-Tupac

-Party-Catch 22

-I Go-DK

-121-Tevin Campbell

-Everytime I Look For You-Blink 182



I dont know. Am I in a good or bad mood? I guess Im sorta in between and I'm ok with that for right now. And I'm sooooo close to being ungrounded!
and my birthday is tomorrow...but no one cares

A Weird Ass Sunday

Man today was wweeeiiiirrrddd. I seriously have so much going on in my head, its ridonkulous..

I only said that cuz i watched Bolt today
but on a serious note. I really do have alot coursing through my head. So many things I wanna say, so many things I gotta do. So many people I want to please
I just dont understand

im gonna go write down my thoughts


maybe if i put them on paper they'll make a lttle bit more sense

A Red-Eyed Tale

I have red eyes...I dont know its i think it may be the fact ive been playing call of duty for a couple of hours.

and allergies

aside from that I was having a good day until Oranges.

Then it all went to hell
Why couldnt i breathe? Why was it that my heart felt like it was gonna pound out of my chest? And why did I feel that feeling again?
The one that just ruins me from the inside out.

I dont know..things have to get worse before they get better right?
sometimes i think its the other way around

Not Really a touchy subject

Well its a Thursday, and I had to call in sick from work so I could go "direct" A Love Of Three Oranges..
Afterwards, B pretty much told me that my act sucked and that Danas and James' were great.

That was my confidence boost for the day i guess.
Other than that today sucked
I got woken up by my sister at 3 and i couldnt go back to sleep
My dad yelled at me for my grades
I continue to slack in english
I continue to say and do stupid things
thats probably why people hate me
Then all of the stupid play shit
then i was being swooned over by a weird S&D chick

whatever..Tonight was just super weird.

On an unrelated note ive been thinking about suicide...alot. Not neccesarily commiting suicide. just thinking about it. I really have no idea why ive been so unhappy. And i know its no person that i know inparticular whos making me unhappy. Its just me. I really do wonder what its like to die. So im gonna welcome it when it comes....i think. For the longest time i always thought that suicide was a cowards way out.



Well..maybe..in a sense...cowardice...in its own way...could be brave